I'm not really that interested in speaking to you, but the one thing that still pisses me off (and is possibly right now denying me of sleep, cuz I only slept for 4 hours and can't get back to sleep.. :/ ) is the way in which you stopped speaking to me, and lied to me about the reason. You said you'd forgiven me, so I reasonably asked why not speak to me then. You then said you were stopping all complicated relationships, and possibly just all relationships, so I tried to honour that. Then I find out that you're still speaking to Will. Don't lie by saying he's a 'simple' relationship, unless you're just saying the complicated ones are with people you don't really like. You used to want him to hug you in bed at night ffs. You never said that about me (apart from 'I guess' when I asked), you only liked me cuz I gave you attention and didn't consider you 'boring' like you said everyone else did *sigh*. Anyway, you're obviously still speaking to Will, so I still feel upset about being lied to by someone that I trusted more than anyone -.- It's just unbelievably upsetting, and I can't just turn that off. It's also gonna stop me being able to trust other people so much for a long time. Thanks, Katie.

I quite probably would have stopped talking to you by now if you'd just stayed friends with me. Well it depends on how you acted, but when you still stay friends with, and blatantly encourage (by posting their dumbass 'FUCK OFF' icon all over your journal) idiots to continue their idiocy, and you carry on in your hypocritical ways ('ordering' people to read books and saying 'you should too' to people buying t-shirts after saying that I shouldn't be trying to change your opinions), then it doesn't really make me respect you or want to be friends with you. I always gave you the benefit of the doubt before because I loved you, and you seemed to be trying to love me. But when it came down to it you really don't love me, and either never knew me or were just keeping me around because I gave you attention.. when I tried spending less time with you, you dumped me (more complicated than that, but I've often wondered what it boiled down to, because I really was trying to be 'nicer' in the last few weeks, but you were just always pulling away so I ended up being sad, tho I don't think too angry at least).

PS I know I was upset and not nice to speak to after we split up, though I was well justified in it, and I don't have to go over it again (re: meeting stat, sitting/sleeping on Les', who likes to visit stripclubs and is most definitely not your mom, lap ). I have told you that I've tried not to demonise you in my head, I keep trying to remind myself that you can be a nice person, and not always the person who enjoys keeping perverts around for a couple more days just because you find it funny when they try to chat you up *sigh* ... so stupid.. okay May as well think of you as a jerk now too? Hmm? After speaking to you last time I again managed to not think that you are, but you lied to me, yet again -.- I don't care if you think I'm making myself out to be a victim, we both had wrongs done to us, and that's just the way it is. If you try to make out like you're the only victim here then you know it's just more lies :/ You were the one that 'never even wanted' to be married and all that crap.. when it didn't take that much for you to want to be -.- just talking to me.. yet now even tho I'm the same person, you've changed your mind, jus cuz I was depressed and argumentative.. woo.. :/ only posting all this cuz I can't sleep I guess... and I may never even see the answer.. I don't like going back on dA cuz it just reminds me of all the shit you have put me through (yes, I KNOW I WASN'T GREAT EITHER, but at least I have a basic respect for people and try to be nice to them even if I don't like them, and if I forgive someone properly, which I find amazingly difficult, then I would actually speak to them too, duh)